OK.. I (might) see things.

Lyn Blue

Thu, 08/26/2010 - 01:30

I have to say that I could've slapped Johnny yesterday. He has me all excited about that stinkin' surprise he kept talking about, and then when I got to work he told me, "it's not in yet, but you're gonna love it!" What an asswad!

I really needed something to get me outta my head! At first, I thought I was maybe just having one of those anxiety things, causing me to temporarily lose it, but now I'm starting to think either 1) I'm totally crazy (totally in the realm of possibilities, considering family history) or 2) I see things. It sounds so fucking (sorry, God, I cannot refrain from my obscenities forever!) stupid, but it's true - I'm trapped in Spooksville, and desperately in need of a 'Lyn rescue.'

First it started with me hearing dogs bark when my log got home. Only to find out the dogs weren't even in the house at the time! I refrained from telling him about that. That happened a couple times...

Also, I've heard dog paws hitting the kitchen floor in the middle of the night, only to find all our dogs all huddled together sleeping, when I tip toe in to see who's walking around! wtf!?

And this is what really freaks me out... I keep thinking I'm seeing a black dog in my kitchen, which normally wouldn't be a thing, since I have a black dog... but I'll go from the kitchen to the living room and she'll be on the couch sleeping!

Damn, I just realized how much my dogs sleep.

But geez, if I'm going to be haunted by something, why animals? That makes me super sad to think that those little guys could be in limbo or something.

Since I rescue so much, I probably see way more animals than most do in their homes... and I've had to foster a few I've lost to old age, but they've always had good lives here... as far as I know.

What the hell does limbo even mean? If God makes the decisions based on our lives, then how can there be a time when God's unsure.... "Let me review your records right quick and I'll get back to you." I mean, especially as far as animals are concerned. They only act on instinct. There's no vindictiveness, or spite, like humans. This crap is so confusing.

Can someone... anyone please enlighten me? I believe in Jesus, and the bible... I just don't know why all these things are happening. And I'd rather not think I'm totally crazy. A little... ok... just not Totally.

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