Is most of life a conundrum or is it just me?

Lyn Blue

Thu, 01/07/2010 - 12:00

Today I had to rush one of my pugs to the vet. Her back right side was in pain.. she was yelping, and crying. I felt so bad. But then they couldn't localize the pain, because she acted fine once we were there!! WTH? So I got pain med and left. $70 later, that is.

Driving her to the vet made me realize how much I love animals, and I'd do anything for them. I've always loved them, but I really LOVE them. I have an affection for them more than humans. They are simple, loving beings, who love us unconditionally. Geez, I can't even say that about one person I know, not really. That's why I volunteer rescue. I suppose it makes me feel important, too, that they rely on me. They count on me. Without me, they are lost. It's the only time I feel like I've really contributed to something that matters.

But it's 2010, and I've decided to try to be better. I'm checking my attitude, even though it's 20 degrees tonight in Sunshine, Texas and I want to bitch about that. And I'm trying to be grateful for things, even the marriage I'm unsure about. And forgive people, even though they don't deserve it.... All this so I don't have those stupid anxiety attacks! What else? I'm trying to look at the glass half full of wine, although when it's half empty, I feel much better. So much of my life is a conundrum. I spend most days just trying to figure it all out. But at least I have my little sweet animals along to sniff things out with, Dawg.

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