I'm not alone, so why am I so lonely?

Lyn Blue

Wed, 06/17/2009 - 01:48

If you've been reading my posts you know that I goof off a lot out of sheer boredom, speak my frank mind frequently and probably offend random people daily... but today I'm just feeling like what I'd imagine vaginal dryness feeling like. Uncomfortable, irritated, lonely, and blah.

I'm surrounding by people all day (the same people, but still) and yet I continue to FEEL lonely. I wake up, look at my log, (AKA Tom) grunt, and get out of bed. I make coffee, hand him his keys, go to the motel, listen to Johnny talk smack, and wait to get an animal rescue. Not that I want them to be lost, but I like the "found" part. I like animals to feel loved. Sometimes I look at those lost doggies and such, and feel a deeply profound connection. All animals that escape must want to be free from their owners deep down, right? I mean, why else do they run? I know they're not human ok, but they have instincts. If they have the convenience of comfort, food, love... why try so hard to leave? They're domesticated too. I could let all my animals out, and sure they would run around, but they'd be back at the door in no time. Nope, not these little bitches. Maybe they live with Jack-nuts too. Neat.

I don't know what it is, but I actually feel better from writing this... for now anyhow, brown cow.

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