Secret Sauce

Lyn Blue

Thu, 03/05/2009 - 10:31

I've been so emotional lately. I feel like I'm on a roller coaster. I'm bored out of my mind and the worst part about it is I feel like I can't change it. It's always been this way. Me and my dad don't speak much. My best friend smokes dope all day, and my log's like living with a card board box. A very sturdy card board box, I might add. But geez. Where's the excitement? Where's the secret sauce for my taco? I'm tired of watching TV every night, and eating at Luey's BBQ. I'm a vegetarian, so these tools got me eatin' beans and potatoes for dinner, YUM. And Rick is getting on my last nerve.. our Blue Top manager. He doesn't really do anything, but he likes to judge us on what we do. Sure, Johnny's a pot head, but he's the most real thing I've got around here. At least I know who he is. Which is sad, because I'm not sure I even know who I am. Why can't I talk to my dad? Why do I hate my life? It's literally the easiest life anyone could ask for. I get to rescue animals, which I LOVE. But it's still not enough. I still want the secret sauce, y'all! I must be one ungrateful be-yotch. 

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